dropping hints all over the place and getting ur hopes up…….. in the end, he takes my heart and makes it bleed… until i almost wish he chokes to death… ALMOST… yet … if he dies, i die…

but then again,,, aren’t i dead yet…?


I just wanna hear you say…

that I’m the only one…

the only one that matters…


and everything will be fine…

even this broken heart

would find it’s way


to gather all the shattered pieces…


Fall To Pieces

I looked away
Then I looked back at you
You tried to say
Things that you can’t undo
If I had my way
I’d never get over you
Today’s the day
I pray that we make it through
Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

I don’t want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don’t want to talk about it
And I don’t want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don’t want to talk about it
‘Cause I’m in love with you

You’re the only one
I’d be with ’til the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

I don’t want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don’t want to talk about it
And I don’t want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don’t want to talk about it
‘Cause I’m in love with you

Want to know who you are
Want to know where to start
I want know what this means
Want to know how to feel
Want to know what is real
I want to know everything

I don’t want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don’t want to talk about it
And I don’t want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don’t want to talk about it

I don’t want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don’t want to talk about it
And I don’t want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
And I don’t want to talk about it
‘Cause I’m in love with you

I’m in love with you
‘Cause I’m in love with you
I’m in love with you
I’m in love with you

As this day, april 25th 2005, the official day I turn 16, comes to an end… I would like to express my gratitude to everyone who made this day special to me…….


This has got to be the best bday I’ve ever had… 10, 20, or even 50 years from now.. I’d be looking back to this very day and remember being very happy…. You guys sure made this day AWESOME and UNFORGETTABLE……


to jenn for that the sign/poster/wtvr-u-call-that-thing-u-posted-on-my-locker…

to manda and the awesome bday card with the equally awesome sticker that said “it’s my bday and I’m an incredibly smart, exciting, and good-looking person !!”

to matt who just had to ruin it and said.. “well… ur smart and exciting…..”

to G who made me not one, but two bday cards…

to my sister and that awesome ribbon that says “kiss me it’s my bday”

to bridget who baked those cupcakes for me..

to Lorenzo, manda t, manda dj, and jenn (and other creeps who I   don’t even know) for eating those cupcakes with me..

to hannah ryen (spelling..?) who bought nine cookies for my bday…

to Emily who sang “happy bday to u” off-key and out of tune like 6 times…

to ms. Molly who gave me those pretty balloons…

to everyone who signed them…

to everyone who greeted me today… (that meant soooooo much to me)..

to that guy in the lunch line, and that other guy sitting on the stairs, for          greeting me even tho I didn’t even know u guys…

and to everyone else who made me feel sooooooo loved today…




Him: what do u want for ur bday…?

Me: (whispering) you, dumbass…

Can’t wait for tomorrow…… bcoz tomorrow… i am officially…



lots of funny stuff this week…. Surprisingly, bio classES were funny…. We talked about worms and jellyfish and squids and sponges… what makes it fun…? Here are a few quotes…(btw, vestigial organs are useless organs..)

kat: “are boobs vestigial organs…??”


Matt: (in response to that) “no…. boobs are not vestigial.. they’re for guys…” (gross!!)


Amanda: “when u breath, u take in oxygen…… and exhale nitrogen…” (LMFAO!!)


Kat: “when a fish breathes, it changes water to oxygen” (OMG!!)


Sum1: “when u put salt on a frog.. it explodes…”


Kat: “when i went diving, i saw this big squid-like thingy,, that had LOTS of tentacles, and it was really huge.. bigger than a human..

Ms shoemaker: “i’m not sure wat ur talking about…….”

Me (whispering to alex): “it’s a sea monster..”


ms shoemaker: “ok, Let’s PRETEND spencer has worms… wat would u have to do to get his worms?”

Alex (whispering): “eat spencer..?”


kat: “so, they use worms to loose wait and it works?”

Ms shoemaker: “yes.. it works perfectly…. But u can die.


amanda: “i feel sorry for sponges… they can’t move.. and they can’t choose what sperm goes into their body..”


don’t u guys wish u were inn my bio class..?


anyway…the rest of the week was pretty much boring… except for “certain moments” after school… specifically Thursday and Friday…. I can’t really remember the funny stuff lorenzo said last Thursday.. but damn, they were hilarious!!! And Friday… b4 flip club… they were putting up signs that said “vote trey and sean” and i saw one.. i was like “who’s TERY?” and jenn was like “it’s TREY u retard!!” and that TREY guy was right there.. staring at us and giving me that “WTF” look… LMAO!!! A few minutes later.. still with the whole “vote trey and sean” fliers… we changed some of them to “vote trey and sean PEDRO or else the hispanic gangsters will kill you… (©abi)” LMAO!! (i REALLY want to put the paper thingy up here.. but our scanner doean’t work… go to jenn’s site!! it’s up there!! ChokingOnYourAlibi or sumtin like that… heehee) Abi is soooo retarded.. her mom calls her and she answered it: “elo? Elo elo? Dees ees page.. Wat doo yoo want? Elo elo?? wat ees yowr prablehm..??……mom! mom! Hello mom!! This is abi!!” LMAO!!!

Yeah.. that’s basically it… and oh yeah…. PARTY ON SUNDAY!! Yesss!!!! And my mom is still buggin me with the 16 roses wtvr and waltz crap… like im gonna do that… yeah right! Hehehehe…




I haven’t updated for like a really long time… mwahahaha!! Teachers basically gave us every single work they could come up with… they’re horrible!! I think that’s their goal in life.. to make the students’ life horrible!! *ahem bro. Matin.. ahem ms. Shoemaker.. ahem mr. Lander.. <sumtyms!! specially w/ tests!!!>*

Ayt.. this is from april 4- april 10… i typed it up a looooooong time ago.. just didn’t have tym to post it up…

Monday:: school was back and everyone was dead. Yep. No one wanted to go to school… i mean,, seriously,, who would!?!?!?!? And jenn and i did the coolest thing……. We went to school w/ the wrong uniform on!! Everyone was wearing spring uniforms,, and we wer wearin winter ones!!! Wearin it and proud!! Wer cool like that!! We stand out!! we do not sway where the wind blows! <wtf?> wat else..? was this the day wen we changed seats for math class…? Hmm.. oh well.. i don’t like my seat,, but it’s better than the last one… *tear for jenn* 

Tuesday:: as usual.. i can’t remember wat happened… but i remember wearin our spring uniforms.. heyyy! I didn’t wanna get in trouble!!

Wednesday:: short day… verrry short.. 1:30 dismissal.. we had flip club.. and we tinkled [LMAO!!] and we danced that hawaiian dance.. that was easy!! Hehehe.. wat else happened…? Uhhhh… nuttin..

Thursday:: uggghh. I can’t remember wat happened!! Sheeesh.. uhhmm. *thinkin hard… * ohh.. we had free period in choir.. [u rock ms flagg!!] 6th period lunch is fun.. those ppol are crazy!! And yeah,, i remember i slept at 4:30 am thurs nyt,, [or Friday morning…?] doing that bio article!! Ugggh!!!! Hate that thing!! But no!!! it’s not over yet!! We still have to do that presentation thingy!!

Friday:: another free period.. same shit, different day..  <i luv dat!!> and oh yeah.. flip club!! Flip club is funnnn… every one should join!! Be honorary filipinos!! hahaha!! Emily and susa,, were uh,,, doin sumtin really weird.. (notice how i try oh-so-hard not to say ‘flirtin’?) that’s sooooo wrong!!

Saturday:: i went with my bro to SJC wen he took the placement test.. i met these 3 flip kids… christian, andy<girl>, and andrew.. they were soo cute!! Not hott cute,, just cute… they look so innocent and helpless!! I’m gonna have fun being a sophomore nxt year!!! Wow,, time really is fast… freshman year is almost over… awwww…. *sniff, sniff*… (tears of joyyy… LMAO!!)


And …… this is from last week and this week….  <sort of..>

I’m not gonna go thru all the days,, coz i don’t really remember wat happened…. But i remember we went to this party…. And we danced carinosa, tinikling and polka sala… well,, i didn’t really dance tinikling.. joe and abbey did.. hehehe..  and oh yeah…..  i finally decided that i will have a party for my bday…!!!!! Sweet sixteen……. Hmm.. im getting old…. Hahaha!!! Ur all comin ryt?!?!?! The more the merrier!!!!

And i learned/found out/realized sumtin today……… SPONGEBOB DOESN’T HAVE A HEART…. bcoz he’s a SPONGE!! According to the book, sponges don’t have organs…….. so,,, HE DOESN’T HAVE A BRAIN TOO??!?!!

While wer at it… i mean,,, the whole sponge-topic… i have a question….


That’s a thot to think about.. kinda like the “if poison expires, is it still poisonous..?” issue…


Awesomely stupid things ppol actually say…

My sis::

Q: who was the first explorer in southeast asia?

<my is> A: hitler? ………


“hey.. my classmate moved to washington, seattle……………. Hold up,, i meant seattle, washington!!”

amanda:: ~~talkin about citizenship//immigration~~

[to me w/ a serious face]“hold up,, r u an alien..?”

~~in the car..~~

me: wat’s sickle cell disease?

Amanda: u know… it’s wen the red blood cell……..sickles.

Ben in math class::

“a dodecagon? Can we just call it 12-gon?”

jenn while sneakin out from the cafeteria:: [a looong tym ago]

“don’t u think we should ask permission first?”


“super mario is an italian plumber!!!”

“lord capulet is a womanizer! *gasps!!* ”

bio class::

ms. Shoemaker: “wat do ur dogs have that u don’t…?”

sum1:: a tail…?



why do i feel obligated updating my site…? it’s not like the thing is yelling at me to update it…. ohhhhhh.. i know who’s actually yellin at me… …