“There’s never enough time to do anything”

How many of you have heard this phrase before? Or even said it yourself? In fact, I know some have you have had this very thought as every time I go into the “Lowlight of my day thread”, many of the posts are “OH NOES I HAVE SO MUCH POTENTIAL, BUT I’M WAY TOO LAZY, BRB WHILE I GO SLIT MY WRITS AND LISTEN TO MCR!!!!!!! IM NOT OKAY! xoxox”

People shouldn’t be so hard on themselves, including me. The cold hard truth is: Most of our lives are meaningless. Is your time really that precious? What do you do for a living? Are you a doctor? A professional athelete or musician? A scientist? Not only is your career insignificant, there are plenty of higher educated people that they have on a waiting list. No one will miss you if you decide to leave work, giving your boss the bird while wipping the company’s motto in your buttocks.

But let’s say your life does have meaning. You are important to your comminity. Then surely, being lazy would give you much more guilt. Alot of people rely on you, you can’t afford to sit around. But you must sit around! At least for a little while, 10 minutes or so. Maybe just a quick run on your home treadmill before you go to work (or at your local gym.) Maybe just talking to someone you have good chuckles with during a lunch break. (And communication is easier than ever now with the internet) Not only will you enjoy these activities, but it will actually increase the capacity to work after you are done relaxing. Work creates stress, a great killer in modern society, give your body a little chill pill for it’s constant stress you put on it. In fact, you might find it hard to concentrate on work with too much stress.

So, it’s not about “There’s never enough time to anything.” In reality, there’s never enough time to do nothing. And what a depressing realization that is.

I couldn’t agree more. I don’t remember the last time I was bored, or I was doing nothing. I’m a third year nursing student, and I feel like I’m always out of time. If I am doing things to pass time (watching TV, internet) it’s usually during the breaks that I give myself. And that’s not without guilt or self-loathing. If I’m not doing work, I’m worrying about doing work.

It would be an understatement to say that I’m stressed out, but I’m trying to deal with it effectively. I started running a few months ago. Last night I ran 6 miles in less than an hour. I haven’t done that since high school! But it worked for me – it has significantly reduced my stress levels. I haven’t cried all semester, haha. If you know anyone from nursing school, you’ll know that crying is kind of an expected part of it. Depressing, I know. But it is what it is.

It’s weird though. I’ve never been this busy and stressed out in my life. But I think it has forced me to learn how to manage my time more efficiently than I have ever before. I think I finally found the balance between good grades, a social life, and enough sleep. Admittedly, I had to adjust my definition of those things. Do I have a 4.0? Fuck no, not in a top 10 nursing school (not bragging, just trying to put things in perspective.) Do I get 9 hours of sleep? When I’m lucky, but rarely. I do try to get at least 6 or 7 hours a night.  It’s very hard to be on your feet for 12 hours at a time if you get less than 6 hours of sleep. And as for a social life, I don’t go out as much as I used to, but I am constantly surrounded by my friends. And it also helps that I have made  good friends from school. It kind of makes doing homework, lectures, and clinicals a little more bearable.

Bottom line: Yeah, I don’t have much time to do all the things that I want to do, even if it’s nothing at all. But I think I’m dealing with this a lot better than most people I know.