Bad things come in three’s, they say.

I refuse to believe that we are about to lose yet another family friend this week. This week. And this will be the one that will break our hearts the most. It’s not fair. It’s never fair. It’s way too soon. 

If you’re lucky, you will meet amazing people in your life. And if you’re really lucky, you will meet people who you swear are superheroes. Ate Hazel is one of those people. She works two jobs as a nurse, taking care of a son with disability (my ever so handsome godson), has two other kids, and is now taking care of her dad who is fighting cancer. Her dad, who seem to look smaller and smaller every time I see him, is back in the ICU as of a few hours ago. I’m terrified for her. I don’t know how she does all this. We help as much as we can, but there’s only so much we can do. 

Honestly, I’m scared. I’m usually not pessimistic, but I’m so, so scared. I know there’s always hope and I believe in miracles, but I’m scared. And I feel incredibly helpless.

In nursing school, they tell you about the countless things about this profession that people love. Here and there, people complain of things they hate, like working Christmas, or 12-13 hour shifts, or rude patients. So far, I think what I hate about nursing is that you take care of someone you have never met and will probably never see again for a few 12-hour shifts. You pour your heart and soul and dedicate yourself in service of this person so they can heal. And sometimes, because you have this obligation, it robs you of the time you could be spending taking care of your own loved ones. Those are the hardest shifts to go through. When you’re taking care of strangers, while you’re own parent is being cared for by someone else.

I don’t know how long Ate Hazel’s dad has left. Days, maybe months, hopefully years. And I don’t know how the next few days are going to play out. I can’t even begin to fathom how Ate Hazel is feeling right now.  But we’re praying. Praying for her, for her dad, for their family. 

May God’s will be done.

Another one of those things that’s MUSIC related

MUSIC ASKS these are actually pretty fucking hard but why not.
  • 1: A song you like with a color in the title
  • 2: A song you like with a number in the title
  • 3: A song that reminds you of summertime
  • 4: A song that reminds you of someone you would rather forget about
  • 5: A song that needs to be played LOUD
  • 6: A song that makes you want to dance
  • 7: A song to drive to
  • 8: A song about drugs or alcohol
  • 9: A song that makes you happy
  • 10: A song that makes you sad
  • 11: A song that you never get tired of
  • 12: A song from your preteen years
  • 13: One of your favorite 80’s songs
  • 14: A song that you would love played at your wedding
  • 15: A song that is a cover by another artist
  • 16: One of your favorite classical songs
  • 17: A song that would sing a duet with on karaoke
  • 18: A song from the year that you were born
  • 19: A song that makes you think about life
  • 20: A song that has many meanings to you
  • 21: A favorite song with a person’s name in the title
  • 22: A song that moves you forward
  • 23: A song that you think everybody should listen to
  • 24: A song by a band you wish were still together
  • 25: A song by an artist no longer living
  • 26: A song that makes you want to fall in love
  • 27: A song that breaks your heart
  • 28: A song by an artist with a voice that you love
  • 29: A song that you remember from your childhood
  • 30: A song that reminds you of yourself